writer female

should i write and am i a girl? no, lets say female, female, female; not girl, female. it's more mature. i don't mean females are older than girls, i mean my embracing my femaleness seems a more mature inner action than saying 'i am a girl', which has more of a feel of a giggly thrill.

am i taking it al too seriously? one makes a choice about what one regards as serious. after serious reflection, yes, it does seem right for me to take my deep sense of my femaleness seriously. one chooses how one builds one's self-image. in doing so, one shapes oneself.

a self-image beyond that of someone who takes pleasure in crossdreaming. a self-image that is less of an alter ego, less absent when the feelings are not so strong.